Each month always seems to have one tune that sticks in my head more than any other. Here I try to figure out why.
Salute to Thames by Johnny Hawksworth. A new start. Health returning. A life-changing compensation award. No more money worries for the time being.
Gwreiddiau Dwfn/Mawrth Oer ar y Blaned Neifion by Band Pres Llareggub. Largely housebound. Sorting out will and funeral wishes. This track is perfect for the start of the service.
Central TV start up theme 1986. Unknown author – library music. A pacy number reflecting a busy start to the month with two volunteering placements and filling the rest of the week with attempting to relaunch business. Mid-month major panic attack means rest of the month largely housebound.
A Whiter Shade of Pale by Procul Harum. Three years ago this month I was a whiter shade of pale.
Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters by Elton John. Filling up my week with volunteering and occupational therapy. Reconnecting with old friends that I haven’t seen for months in OT, meeting new people in voluntary work and keeping in touch with people I used to know during my six months in supported housing. All of them quirky. All of them a blessing.
Tir ha Mor by Gwenno. Moved in after a delay caused by severe weather. Trying to find direction and structure.
We Live So Fast by Heaven 17. Re-housed again after 6 months in supported housing.
Angor by Tudur Huws Jones. DWP bungling. Income cut off. Suicidal. Looking for stability. Something to hang on to.
Gafael yn fy Llaw by John ac Alun. Head injury and GP messing with my antidepressants. Mood swings a-go-go. Looking for stability.
It’s Easier to Walk Away by Elton John. Celebrating 2nd anniversary of freedom by doing all the things I wasn’t permitted to do when I was with my ex. The “don’t look back” bit is still a bit difficult.
Dwi’n Amau Dim (I Don’t Doubt A Thing) by Celt. Now re-housed in supported housing. The move was painful but now it’s done I can’t remember when I last felt so optimistic. It’s so quiet here. (Apart from a fortnight of chaos where I wanted to go back where I came from)
We Live So Fast by Heaven 17. Finally accepted for re-housing. “Please don’t ask me to stay. I’m leaving this town. Don’t worry now. Believe me as I believe that luck is on my side. The future is mine if I can find a way through these strange days of my life.”
Overture to ‘Tommy’ arranged by Henry Mancini. First evening out in years. First signs of a social life of my own in the last 5 years.
Midland Parade by Johnny Pearson. Starting social skills course and joining ASD social group. World opening up.
I’m Still Standing by Elton John. Trying to keep cheerful on anniversary of separation. Autism diagnosis.
The Only One I Know by The Charlatans. Going downhill as anniversary of separation approaches. “Everyone’s been burned before. Everybody knows the pain.”
Odyssey by Rain featuring Stephanie de Sykes. Getting out and about. Exploring the mountains. Starting a photography course. Starting a video project which uses Odyssey as a soundtrack for video footage of the area. “Life is a beautiful book”